This blog is transitioning from five small stones because as I've thought about where I am today, my story today, the new title feels more appropriate. Whereas five-small-stones was a process of learning how God could take my little, my insufficiency, my weakness - my small stones - and use it for his glory, two years has brought me to a place where the lesson that God seems to repeatedly teach is that I am enough - more than that, that I am delightful to Him - with or without my "little bit."
Jesus loves me, this I know. Simple Gospel, taught well to small children, but so beautifully unconditional. Maybe simple isn't such a bad thing.
I have been given a new name. Not disappointment. Not "not enough." Not failure or fraud.
Beloved. Daughter. Delight.
Even in my messiness, trying to muddle my way through life - and yes, much of this blog will be the awkwardness that is my life - I am enough. Beloved and delighted in, even.
In the midst of a beautiful and good marriage that is fraught with the mess of two imperfect humans, in the middle of discombobulated family, in the chaos of trying to figure out how to be parents, in the panic of trying to discern how to balance job transition and career and goals and family and marriage and still get the floors vacuumed occasionally, throughout the roller-coaster that is pregnancy hormones, in all my awkward stories, and in the midst trying to push through burnout and anger and the MESS that cannot be summarized neatly - I am called beloved. And in that, is a freedom to process and be transparent with everything else above. Because in the security of knowing that I am called Beloved, I also hear the truth that the chaos, the mess, the awkwardness, is not who I am. It does not define me.
That is good news for me today.
Welcome to this blog. And I hope you enjoy the ride. :)
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